I cheated..actually just saw my boyfriends close friend who i knew liked me,,just to piss my bf!!?

i cheated actually coz i had a feeling he wasnt being honest about his job,studies, plan,everything and his friends said somany bad things about him,,while he was away.we have along distance relationship..i didnt know what to think and do so i dated his close friend for a week , but iwant him back and said i was sorry,but he acts really weird and wont give me a clear nswer. i cant tell if he forgives me or noti. if he still wants me or not.plz help